so, the whole weight thing…….

i hate to admit that i’ve gained back all the weight that i lost when i was at the height of my 10k training. in order to protect my skin recovering from the laser peel disaster, i have to be extremely careful about exposure to the sun, so i cannot run on the track except really early mornings and  then due to the upper respiratory infections i have to be careful of smog, dust and pollen levels for my sometimes asthmatic lungs and highly finicky sinuses. do i need any further excuses?! aargghhh!

i have been feeling exceedingly tired, demoralized and unmotivated lately when it comes to exercise. i can’t believe that 6 weeks ago, i was ready to run a 10k! it seems so far beyond me now, even though  i know that once i start, i’ll soon be hooked again. getting started is the major issue though. i’ve done the odd tae-bo class here in my living room, but i need consistency!

i feel like i’ve been a spectator to my steadily climbing scale and dropping fitness levels. watching it like the proverbial train wreck you can’t take your eyes off, yet can do nothing about. but the truth is i can do something about this – i’ve just once again had to hit bottom. ha, there it is again, the endless puns – i’m getting so far behind i’m in front of myself, “big bottom gals”, scraping bottom, backing things up, ifs and butts, i’m so bummed, “she’s a brick..”, “i like big …” – ok, i think you get the picture. amazing how many songs there are celebrating big booties!

celebrations in song notwithstanding, i am recalibrating. the aim now is to run the spar ladies race, 12 october.

so here goes. bottom line is, i’ll be running my butt off… 😉