last year my non new year’s resolution was to, possibly maybe, IF i felt like it, start training and then run a 10k before year’s end. i, who have always abhorred running, i who was left panting and breathless after climbing the mere 5 flights of stairs up from the lunch-room at work, wanted to start running!
i am SO over running. no, seriously. really. after sunday’s soweto 10k, i am absolutely hanging up my running shoes.
i went to the track yesterday for the first time since the spar 10k. in fact i should have gone monday, but my schedule is such that i’m at work at the crack and back after dark. i have so little desire to do this that i decided not to set my alarm for yesterday, but to see if i woke up in time to go to the track before work.
in the morning i opened my eyes and rolled over to look at the clock. 05H58. urgh. did a quick bathroom run, then jumped back in bed. 06H20 and i was lying staring at the curtain. i finally admitted defeat, got up and into my running gear and headed for the track.
07h00 – the track lay melting under a seeming-midday-sun. by the time i got to 5k’s, i was having to give myself a good talking to in order to keep going.
matter: damn, it’s hot, i’m not enjoying this. knee hurts. i can feel where i got that blister last time. i know i can get through the race on sunday. i can just stop now.
mind: what?! what are you talking about? if you stop now, you’re a quitter! you’re not a quitter, come on! just finish this lap.
matter: ok, that’s 13 laps, i can stop now.
mind: no, don’t stop now! come on, just one more. and one more. and one more….
it’s all mind over matter. and i mind. i really do. i think i’m going back to dancing, cos i know some people feel like running is absolute zen. it’s where they find their bliss. not me. i start a run knowing that i’m going to have to have to do this for the next 45/50/60 minutes. and i do it even when it feels like more modern day torture.
for me the best part about running is once i’m done. and i don’t think that’a a good enough reason to do it.
though i am going to do it. the soweto 10k, sunday november 2, 2008, 06h15. yup, that would be this sunday! wish me luck!
really! i swear i did – and there are photos somewhere out there to prove it.
i finally ran that 10k race!
ok, so did thousands of other women (and men – in drag, it being the spar ladies race. one guy ran with a micro-mini riding up to reveal his thong underneath! one in a wig and handbag, many in fish-tights!)
so after a few false starts (figuratively speaking), i followed nike’s advice and just did it. starting on march 23rd by walking half a lap and running half, it took me till end september to get to 10k’s. then followed a major hiccup in which i did virtually no running since then. this morning, i eventually crossed the finish line of my self-inflicted non-new-year’s-resolution resolution to run a 10k race this year.
and did i mention i don’t even like running?
i suppose it was appropriate that arnold geerdts was the mc for the event, seeing that he’s the one who figuratively gave me a shove onto the internet to find that couch to 10k program. he can take the blame, i’ll take the credit! 🙂
i said i’d do it. i did it. 1h 9 minutes. and i have the blistered toes to prove it.
now if i NEVER run again in my life, it will be too soon.
if i can only dodge the friend pestering me to do the carnival city 10k next weekend!
and the original purpose of this blog, to help me stick to my goal and take me across the finish line, is served! now whatever will i write about?! ha!
ok. i’m officially crapping myself.
went to pick up my t-shirt and number (#3276) for the spar ladies race 10k tomorrow morning and had a look at the route. i’m scared.
i’m feeling so underprepared. 2 months ago, i was in top shape and more than ready. then i had the whole laser peel drama as well as problems with my lungs and since then i feel like i’ve been hauling myself up a mountainside with nothing but dental floss! i’ve run exactly 7 times in the last 8 weeks and 5 out of those were in the last 10 days.
i did 8k’s on monday, 6.4k’s on wednesday and 5k’s last night. and each time it’s been slower than the pace i used to run months ago and i’ve been pretty exhausted after. the realization is sinking in that i may not be quite prepared for this. i’ve been running only on the track, whereas tomorrow, i’m going to have to overcome road-surface and hills. i’ve only run 10k’s once before and that was almost 2.5 months ago.
still, i’m determined. i’m going to finish this thing if it kills me. which it won’t.
good for me! 😉
wish me luck and check back tomorrow this time folks!
yesterday was day one.
feels like deja vu! i’ve had so many day ones on this holy grail quest journey toward my goal of completing a 10k race this year. i noticed somewhere today that there are 106 days left to 2008. 106 days in which to FINALLY reach my goal.
last night i did a tae-bo work out in my living room. i finally found a workout on the 4 disc series which seemed close to the classes i attended at the billy blanks studios in l.a. then i set my alarm so that i could get up this morning and go to the track before i left for work. i pressed the snooze button a few times, but i gave myself a good talking to, yanked myself out of bed, into my sneakers, and off to the track.
i can’t say it was easy, but i talked myself through each point of wanting to give up. and there were a few. surprisingly, it wasn’t even my worst time – not great, but not my worst. aching knees, protesting hips, my buff pulled up almost completely over my face to protect against the sun. 5k’s.
less than 1 month to work myself back up to be able to do the spar ladies race 10k.
i must admit, i’m getting a little tired of this journey – “are we there yet?”
so, the whole weight thing…….
i hate to admit that i’ve gained back all the weight that i lost when i was at the height of my 10k training. in order to protect my skin recovering from the laser peel disaster, i have to be extremely careful about exposure to the sun, so i cannot run on the track except really early mornings and then due to the upper respiratory infections i have to be careful of smog, dust and pollen levels for my sometimes asthmatic lungs and highly finicky sinuses. do i need any further excuses?! aargghhh!
i have been feeling exceedingly tired, demoralized and unmotivated lately when it comes to exercise. i can’t believe that 6 weeks ago, i was ready to run a 10k! it seems so far beyond me now, even though i know that once i start, i’ll soon be hooked again. getting started is the major issue though. i’ve done the odd tae-bo class here in my living room, but i need consistency!
i feel like i’ve been a spectator to my steadily climbing scale and dropping fitness levels. watching it like the proverbial train wreck you can’t take your eyes off, yet can do nothing about. but the truth is i can do something about this – i’ve just once again had to hit bottom. ha, there it is again, the endless puns – i’m getting so far behind i’m in front of myself, “big bottom gals”, scraping bottom, backing things up, ifs and butts, i’m so bummed, “she’s a brick..”, “i like big …” – ok, i think you get the picture. amazing how many songs there are celebrating big booties!
celebrations in song notwithstanding, i am recalibrating. the aim now is to run the spar ladies race, 12 october.
so here goes. bottom line is, i’ll be running my butt off… 😉
after almost a month of being ill, i can finally do a running update (strange synchronicity – the song playing in my itunes right now is “running” by eliane elias).
after thoroughly medicating myself: antihistamine – check. nasal spray- check. inhaler – check. 50SPF sunblock to protect my already hyperpigmented face – check. buff to cover lower half of face – check. djkramer on ipod – check. heart rate monitor – check. water – check. (man i’m exhausted already!) i head for the track.
the sun, at 9a.m. is already beating down, a breeze takes the edge off. i decide to attempt 8 laps, seeing that my lungs have been in such a state. eventually i manage 12.5 (5k’s), switching directions at 6. my time is surprisingly not as slow as my worst time, even though i take it really slowly. i have as audience the entire lions rugby team which arrives for practice while i trudge my way around the track even though running, like sex, is something i prefer to do in private. oh well.
hey, once again, pure mind over matter. i mind, it matters, but i nike’d it. swoosh!