back on track – uhm, sort of…

last year my non new year’s resolution was to, possibly maybe, IF i felt like it,  start training and then run a 10k before year’s end. i, who have always abhorred running, i who was left panting and breathless after climbing the mere 5 flights of stairs up from the lunch-room at work, wanted to start running!

amazingly, i did it! it took me at least 6 months of training, but i eventually ran two 10k races; the spar ladies race and the soweto 10k the 2nd of november. however, less than a week after the latter, my long-time BF and i broke up and he moved out. you think i would have gone and tried  running off the blues, but instead, i stayed put and wallowed! no gym, no track, nothing. the fact that i lost my appetite and a good few kilos i’d been trying forever to shed, didn’t help to motivate me either.
3 awful months and some not very successful attempts at on-line dating later (maybe more about that some other time), the BF  and i realized that we were total failures at remaining exes. we decided we were very happy to become quitters at quitting each other.
in our time apart, he’d bought himself a mountain bike and and joined a cycling club, so once we re-united, we started doing some spinning classes at the gym. i though, have the kind of body-type which requires but one spinning class before my thighs start bulking up and i look capable of kick-starting a boeing,  and my butt, already obviously of saartjie baartman lineage, gets even bigger. tighter, more muscular and hoiked further up my back, but yes, bigger. so it looks like it might be a better idea to start running again.
i’ve done a few road/park runs over the past few weeks. half hour each, distance unknown, and i find it hard to believe that i’ve actually been quite excited by these runs. the BF rides his bike while i slog up and down hills in the park with the dogs roaming around and occasionally attempting to trip me up. everything still hurts, especially seeing that i’ve suffered some major back spasms this past month, but i think i’ll keep at it. yesterday i went back to the track for the first time since last october and ran 5k’s in just under 35 minutes. track running, though,  seems to require more tenacity and determination. maybe it has something to do with the fact that you keep running the same endless mobius strip loop and it feels like you could step off at any moment, whereas with road running you have a distinct start and finish point and if you don’t keep going, you don’t get home.
i thought i’d hung my running shoes up for good once i’d achieved my goal, but it seems i’d merely kicked them under the bed. i’ve blown off the dust bunnies and replaced them with good ole trail dirt!
ok, so maybe once a runner, always a runner? any other runners out there? what do you think?

mind over matter

i am SO  over running. no, seriously. really. after sunday’s soweto 10k, i am absolutely hanging up my running shoes.

i went to the track yesterday for the first time since the spar 10k. in fact i should have gone monday, but my schedule is such that i’m at work at the crack and back after dark. i have so little desire to do this that i decided not to set my alarm for yesterday, but to see if i woke up in time to go to the track before work.

in the morning i opened my eyes and rolled over to look at the clock. 05H58. urgh. did a quick bathroom run, then jumped back in bed. 06H20 and i was lying staring at the curtain.  i finally admitted defeat, got up and into my running gear and headed for the track.

07h00 – the track lay melting under a seeming-midday-sun. by the time i got to 5k’s, i was having to give myself a good talking to in order to keep going.

matter: damn, it’s hot, i’m not enjoying this. knee hurts. i can feel where i got that  blister last time. i know i can get through the race on sunday. i can just stop now.

mind: what?! what are you talking about? if you stop now, you’re a quitter! you’re not a quitter, come on! just finish this lap.

matter: ok, that’s 13 laps, i can stop now.

mind: no, don’t stop now! come on, just one more. and one more. and one more….

it’s all mind over matter. and i mind. i really do. i think i’m going back to dancing, cos i know some people feel like running is absolute zen. it’s where they find their bliss. not me. i start a run knowing that i’m going to have to have to do this for the next 45/50/60 minutes. and i do it even when it feels like more modern day torture.

for me the best part about running is once i’m done. and i don’t think that’a a good enough reason to do it.

though i am going to do it.  the soweto 10k, sunday november 2, 2008, 06h15. yup, that would be this sunday! wish me luck!

just done it!


really! i swear i did – and there are photos somewhere out there to prove it.


i finally ran that 10k race! 


i have 10 000 reasons to look that smug!

i have 10 000 reasons to look that smug!


ok, so did thousands of other women (and men – in drag, it being the spar ladies race. one guy ran with a micro-mini riding up to reveal his thong underneath! one in a wig and handbag, many in fish-tights!) 

so after a few false starts (figuratively speaking), i followed nike’s advice and just did it. starting on march 23rd by walking half a lap and running half, it took me till end september to get to 10k’s. then followed  a major hiccup in which i did virtually no running since then. this morning, i eventually crossed the finish line of my self-inflicted non-new-year’s-resolution resolution to run a 10k race this year.

and did i mention i don’t even like running? 

i suppose it was appropriate that arnold geerdts was the mc for the event, seeing that he’s the one who figuratively gave me a shove onto the internet to find that couch to 10k program. he can take the blame, i’ll take the credit! 🙂

i said i’d do it. i did it. 1h 9 minutes. and i have the blistered toes to prove it. 

now if i NEVER run again in my life, it will be too soon.

just done it!

just done it!

if i can only dodge the friend pestering me to do the carnival city 10k next weekend! 

and the original purpose of this blog, to help me stick to my goal and take me across the finish line, is served! now whatever will i write about?! ha!

spar ladies race – 10k

ok. i’m officially crapping myself. 

went to pick up my t-shirt and number (#3276)  for the spar ladies race 10k tomorrow morning and had a look at the route. i’m scared. 

i’m feeling so underprepared. 2 months ago, i was in top shape and more than ready. then i had the whole laser peel drama as well as problems with my lungs and since then i feel like i’ve been hauling myself up a mountainside with nothing but dental floss! i’ve run exactly 7 times in the last 8 weeks and 5 out of those were in the last 10 days.

i did 8k’s on monday, 6.4k’s on wednesday and 5k’s last night. and each time it’s been slower than the pace i used to run months ago and i’ve been pretty exhausted after. the realization is sinking in that i may not be quite prepared for this. i’ve been running only on the track, whereas tomorrow, i’m going to have to overcome road-surface and hills. i’ve only run 10k’s once before and that was almost 2.5 months ago.

still, i’m determined. i’m going to finish this thing if it kills me. which it won’t.

good for me! 😉

wish me luck and check back tomorrow this time folks!

deja vu – all over again.

yesterday was day one.


feels like deja vu! i’ve had so many day ones on this holy grail quest journey toward my goal of completing a 10k race this year. i noticed somewhere today that there are 106 days left to 2008. 106 days in which to FINALLY reach my goal.

last night i did a tae-bo work out in my living room. i finally found a workout on the 4 disc series which seemed close to the classes i attended at the billy blanks studios in l.a. then i set my alarm so that i could get up this morning and go to the track before i left for work.  i pressed the snooze button a few times, but i gave myself a good talking to, yanked myself out of bed, into my sneakers, and off to the track.

i can’t say it was easy, but i talked myself through each point of wanting to give up. and there were a few. surprisingly, it wasn’t even my worst time – not great, but not my worst.  aching knees, protesting hips, my buff pulled up almost completely over my face to protect against the sun. 5k’s.

less than 1 month to work myself back up to  be able to do the spar ladies race 10k.

i must admit, i’m getting a little tired of this journey – “are we there yet?”

the bottom line

so, the whole weight thing…….

i hate to admit that i’ve gained back all the weight that i lost when i was at the height of my 10k training. in order to protect my skin recovering from the laser peel disaster, i have to be extremely careful about exposure to the sun, so i cannot run on the track except really early mornings and  then due to the upper respiratory infections i have to be careful of smog, dust and pollen levels for my sometimes asthmatic lungs and highly finicky sinuses. do i need any further excuses?! aargghhh!

i have been feeling exceedingly tired, demoralized and unmotivated lately when it comes to exercise. i can’t believe that 6 weeks ago, i was ready to run a 10k! it seems so far beyond me now, even though  i know that once i start, i’ll soon be hooked again. getting started is the major issue though. i’ve done the odd tae-bo class here in my living room, but i need consistency!

i feel like i’ve been a spectator to my steadily climbing scale and dropping fitness levels. watching it like the proverbial train wreck you can’t take your eyes off, yet can do nothing about. but the truth is i can do something about this – i’ve just once again had to hit bottom. ha, there it is again, the endless puns – i’m getting so far behind i’m in front of myself, “big bottom gals”, scraping bottom, backing things up, ifs and butts, i’m so bummed, “she’s a brick..”, “i like big …” – ok, i think you get the picture. amazing how many songs there are celebrating big booties!

celebrations in song notwithstanding, i am recalibrating. the aim now is to run the spar ladies race, 12 october.

so here goes. bottom line is, i’ll be running my butt off… 😉

back on track… hopefully.

after almost a month of being ill, i can finally do a running update (strange synchronicity – the song playing in my itunes right now is “running” by eliane elias). 

after thoroughly medicating myself: antihistamine – check. nasal spray- check. inhaler – check. 50SPF sunblock to protect my already hyperpigmented face – check. buff to cover lower half of face – check. djkramer on ipod – check. heart rate monitor – check. water – check. (man i’m exhausted already!) i head for the track.

i feel like that fat guy from that funny show


the sun, at 9a.m. is already beating down, a breeze takes the edge off. i decide to attempt 8 laps, seeing that my lungs have been in such a state. eventually i manage 12.5 (5k’s), switching directions at 6. my time is surprisingly not as slow as my worst time, even though i take it really slowly. i have as audience the entire lions rugby team which arrives for practice while i trudge my way around the track even though running, like sex, is something i prefer to do in private. oh well. 

hey, once again, pure mind over matter. i mind, it matters, but i nike’d it. swoosh!