hey there, happy new year! yup, i’m back folks!
actually, i don’t know if that’s necessarily true.
physically, i’ve arrived back in johannesburg after 3 mostly blissful weeks in goa, but i think there’s almost a lifetime of thoughts and experience and change swirling round my brain – most of it inchoate, little of which has had time to congeal into words – and i’m not even sure how much of it is fit for public consumption.
3 weeks sharing a tiny, cramped, little room with my friend crystal, sleeping on a single bed with a mattress so thin it took weeks for my hips to stop complaining. cold bucket showers with no towel, having to dry off with my face cloth and air-dry the rest, smelly indian-style squatting toilets – an exercise in deprivation – yet, suffice to say, it was beautiful. sweaty, melanoma-temptingly hot, gut-wrenching, with cows, soul-splitting, inspiring, with more cows, question-inducing, extreme polarities of light and dark, a few more cows and some flies, playful, fun, a lot more cows, flies and mosquitoes plus facing my demons and being met by the light. about on par with a first trip to burning man – except for the cows. and the flies and mosquitoes. life-altering.
i’m grateful and i’m blessed… and i’m going to try very hard to remember to stay that way.